I know it may seem unfair of me to blame just you for my guys dog like behavior( not the loyal kind of course) . After all, I realize it takes two to tango and that both of you are at fault. But you know what, it gives me a perversive kind of joy to hurl my anger like a giant fireball of hate (metaphorically speaking, of course) directly at your face.
BUT after an angry separation , much soul searching, and a bittersweet reunion with my pre-relationship jeans, I decided to work on my anger issues.
Maybe we have met, maybe in the supermarket as I was buying that bowl of ice-cream to go drown my sorrows in while you were shopping for a new lingerie to go showcase your prowess in. Maybe it was at the chemist when you looked with bewilderment at how many aspirins one could take, as you waited in line so that everyone could clear the line so that you could pop those P2s like peanuts.
Or maybe you even know me, maybe you are the one who was constantly on my case testifying against my man on how much of a stray he is, passing judgement on how if he was your man you could have kicked his ass to the cab like yesterday. Joke on me right??!
Maybe you are the reason why his phone is more guarded than the Cbk or why he works for NASA nowadays, constantly needing space.
Here I was, trying to build a future with him, through thick and thin and constantly, more than enough times, overlooking the fact and the possibility that you actually existed, cause you know I was the girl who was tired of being alone and just wanted to let go of her insecurities.
And you may fool your self and I hope it actually uplifts your thoroughly battered self esteem that he left me for you but you are wrong, he came rushing to you cause you were easy and your small mind couldn’t see through his schemes and lies, so u built an illusion that he could be in love with you.
Piece of unsolicited advice, if you are so unhappy with your life, put on your big girl panties and go deal with it instead of meddling in other people’s relationships.
Truth is maybe you are the thing that excites him right now, but he gets excited a lot, like really a lot and after all that hullabaloo fades, say two weeks, he will come rushing back to me.
If you know anything about karma you would know that this is gonna come biting on your ass.
Maybe some day you will manage to find some to convince that you are worth of their trust and you will want to settle down, and maybe after few months into it, your guy will stray too and you will realize that if only you had the patience to wait for your own man, you couldn’t be crying over sad Google quotes and secretly stalking my profile to see how good my life is.
For now you can enjoy the attention and adulation. But remember girl, you just played yourself.